Shoot A Needle Threw My Heart So I Know Its Real. <3

havn't been on in awhile.
things have been bad.
things have been horrible.

im in exam week.
i have one tommorow & tuesday.
so today is study,study,study.
even if i havnt talked to my love in over 2 days.

nothing has been better so far.
and i'm on the edge,
does he love me?
does he care?

i love him, i care.. alot.
i hope i see you soon sweethearttt.
because if you want me to be completly honest...
i need you.

i want you.
i crave you.

i need to feel your warm hands on my body ‹3
i need to feel a soft kiss and a beautiful voice ‹3
help me.
be there for me.

dear love,
i want you by my side.

Today was HELL.
i ruined everything and some things we're said to me that might scar me for life.
Ghislain said that he was happier with his ex girlfriends because they didn't fight as much as we do.. then he said that he didn't mean it that way.. that he was happy with me, and didn't wanna leave me, but wanted us to stop fighting so we could just be happy together, he said that, soon, we're gonna stop fighting, and everything will be alright.
but i know that they won't just because of me; im too jealous, i make a big deal for everything.
more than anything in the world i wanna us to make it..he's the love of my life.. he is my life.
he hates that i love him so much.. that i've made me entire life about him.. but i have, and i wanna keep it that way.. i hate that he keeps trying to push me away.. but i guess i have too..
he told me to just start over everything, forget all the fights.. all the mistakes.. im hoping that we can.
i love him to death..
i would do anything for him to love me as much as i love himm.. <3


ILOVEYOUBBY.. <3
Don't Let Go, <3



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Yeah,
so if you've seen all my other articles you probably know that i'm going threw a hard time.

to be honest i over do it alot.. those things happen, but its probably somthing that you wouldn't take as a big deal, but to me it is.

i love my boyfriend, i love him ALOT... and i know he loves me back.. sometimes i wouldn't think so, but i know it.
to be honest im sorry for all the trouble i've caused.. everything that happened is my fault.. and maybe a little of his.. but its mostly mine.

i love him.. and honestly if i could live my life with him, i would.. things we're good today, and im kinda in a good mood.. but something happened at the end of the day that kinda made me go "ehh wtf?"..

i shouldn't get upset though.. everything will be fine, or at least i hope so.
we're suposed to be together tommorow, so hopefully he won't ditch me for his friends..
he hasn't done that lately... but im still kinda scared.

i love you ghislain <3